please don't give up, dear walls; don't let the ceiling fall

i'm gonna be very honest when i say that i'm crying while writing this. hard.

one my favorite bands, the matches, has gone on hiatus. i never really went much farther than the music with them, which was unlikely of me. this was one of the first bands that i didn't go scrummaging around for every known fact about every member. i just loved them for the music. from the very second i heard 'salty eyes', i fell in love. it's still the most played song on my ipod.

i never went to a matches show, and now i regret it more than anything. i kept telling myself to go check them out in person, but i never did. and i can't believe it. now my chances are gone and i'll always regret it.

dear shawn, matt, dylan, and jon,
you 4 boys have made some of the best music i've heard. when i listen to you, i feel safe. not much music can do that to a person, let alone me. thank you for that. thank you for everything you've done for me. i love you more than you, or even i, know. i'm sorry i never had the honor of meeting you. you mean so much to me. i'll be the first person to know if and when you come back.
love always,
colleen s.